Grand Reunion

Dear Classmates

So many years have gone by now since I last saw glimpses of many of you.

Like you, I have mixed feelings about the coming reunion. There are questions I've been asking myself lately but there's one that causes me the most concern.

Have I change a lot? I thought I did, in more ways than one!

I am now more confident, cultured, and experienced. More socially-competent and certainly better looking than I had been in high school, though someone might argue with that and admittedly, either way, that wasn't saying much! ;-)

I didn't have a lot of patience back then nor was I paying attention to details.

What stayed the same though is the fact that I've always been the result-oriented person I ever was and likes to keep everything as simple as possible; following closely the "KISS principle" my parents taught me.

I was not a good listener back then but now I thought I'm better. I am eager to learn more about what you all have done with your lives....where you've been, where you're going....

Back then those were my problems. I wasn't that cultured nor experienced to deal with the day to day stuff. Frankly, back then I didn't really care much about the world outside of me because I was too afraid to know what I was missing.

I was so insecured and had that inferior feeling that stopped me from adapting socially. I tried at times...so reluctanctly!

I always considered myself an outsider, an outcast...that is why I was never in any circle.

I even felt like I didn't have the looks nor charms that many of you ladies will even notice. But that's alright! Nothing against any of you young ladies of the 70's. ;-)

Still though that didn't really crush what's left of me...

...that little confidence I can always rely on...

... that I can do better!

Certainly, I had the ambitions like any young man or woman next to me under that humongous mango tree.

Also back then I made some notable mistakes. The worst one being hardly noticed though...not until now!

I did not really let myself get to know many of you, nor let many of you get to know me.

As I thought about this reunion, I begun to realize something...that reunions are supposedly meant for rekindling old bonds, not making new ones! And without having made all that many friends back then, I am afraid I don't have much to work with in a one-night or two of spending time with all of you.

I'm a little worried and scared.

Some of you may not feel the same way. Perhaps more worried & scared than me just because you may think many of your classmates fared better than you. That they have a great job, a huge bank account, a nice sporty-car, and perhaps a gorgeous wife or an executive-looking debonair husband.

That you feel like you had transformed yourself very little.

Honestly, I think that's all superficial! So trivial!

No one should be concerned at all about stuff as insignificant as that! We should all realize that this is not by any means a popularity contest let alone the "biggest loser" awards night.

This coming reunion, there shouldn't be nothing more to feel other than the excitement of spending a couple of hours with one another and take us all back to where we started and maybe....we'll get a chance to know more of each other...and start all over again!

Someone said, "I always tell myself I could live with the mistakes I've done..." That's the same maxim I have now...that I know in many positive ways, I did really change a lot because of the mistakes I made in the past!

I am really so sorry I didn't get to know all of you better in high school...nor I let you know me.


Sincerely,

egay d.

posted by Batch '78 @ 04:10